For one thing I really don't know how I am going to be on an eight hour flight, but it has to be better than a 21 hour bus ride to Florida. The excitment of going and getting there will make it all feel fast. I would say I am a pretty good traveler, but going in a big group can be overwhelming at times just based on the fact that we all need to work seamlessly together. 

Being with a group of students can really relieve discomfort and I am grateful that I have a big group to relate to and get to know more. To be honest, I have already connected with some of the girls in our class. I'm sure that I will come back with new friendships. You know while traveling with a lot of people can ease the feeling of homesickness, I also really like to keep to myself at times. I know we have packed schedules each day, but sometimes all I want to do is chill out and not worry about other people. Pacing myself in this aspect will be necessary if I'm going to need times to reboot during the trip.

I have the expectation that all is going to be great, but I also have expectations that there will be times that I feel sad, confused, distraught, lost, etc. Being in a new place, for an extended period of time with people I hardly know yet, can bring up these feelings and I want to make sure that my headspace doesn't dwell on these things because I am there to enjoy every minute of the trip and make the most out of everything available to me. Embracing the sense of the unknown, figuring out how to navigate, and adapting to new social sitations will be a test for me. 

I know there are many people who have already travelled to a ton of different countries and probably remember the first time they traveled abroad for the first time, too. I don't really know what to expect, how everything is going to go, but the people that have made this possible at my college really know what they're doing and are well experienced in it. 

The emotions I have are totally normal and I think I am more than ready to have this experience. As I am writing this now, within a week I will be away and my plans for blogging are going to be on hold as I take in everything I can while I'm away. I will be documenting my travel and of course, sharing a post about it as soon as I get back in early July. 

When I think about all the things that could happen, I try to remember that fear is probably the main factor that pulls people away from experiencing the world and going beyond what they know. I really want to travel as much as I can and that takes a lot of strength and mind power to do, but I know it will all be worth it in the end. Let me know what your travel plans are this summer! I can't wait to tell you all about it. 

People ask me if I'm on summer yet—I'm not. I'm still in school, but that's okay! I like being productive and having a schedule keeps me grounded and focused. However, this past Memorial Day I had the chance to take a road trip down to Missouri to enjoy the fresh air, sunshine, and definitely the pool. Breaks like those are the best because you get to worry less and rejoice in eachother's company—something I need more than I think. So, yes summer is nearing around the corner and so is June. 

There is so much going on in June. May was definitely a busy month for me academic wise, but I have one big trip abroad in two weeks! If you forgot, I am going to France, Spain, and the Netherlands. Other than that, I am finishing up finals and taking advantage of the time I have over seas. 

These next two weeks in June I will be working my butt off, finals is in the next week and I have been pushing through all of my assignments and group projects. It doesn't make it easier when all of my friends have already been done with school for the past month. 

I'll be honest, I do have a bit of apprehension before going to Europe. It's my first time and only friends I know have been and experienced long distance travel. I know eventually I will get adjusted, but the fact that I don't know how I am going to adjust when I get there can make me worriesome. Before study abroad trips like this one, my instructors meet with everyone to lay down logistics and how everything is planned out—more or less, travelling leads to unexpected delays or obstacles that you just have to adjust to. I'm curious to see how well I can handle these situations and be aware of it. 

My goal for June is to just simply enjoy it all by being as present as I can be. I know it will go by extrememly fast and I'm lowkey already missing it because I know this trip will fly by. My plan is to take a lot of pictures, but to control my technology use while I'm there. I know wifi and all that will  not be as strong anyway, so making the real memories will be more than enough for me. 

Another goal I have while I'm in Europe is to be spontaneous. You know, try new things, say yes to more opportunities, get out of my comfort zone a little, and talk to the locals. There's so much I could worry about while traveling, but that's so much time wasted when I could be enjoying moments freely. I've been in the midwest my whole life, and there's so much to explore out there, I don't want to take it all for granted. 

I am really lucky for how far I have come, there are so many things ahead of me. It almost seems unreal at times the things you can accomplish in such little time—and then it's already past you. If I can inspire anyone, I would advise you to think about where you are right now, the things that drive and move you, the people that surround you, and the memories you could be making instead of just looking at your phone and swiping your life away. 

The most iconic 2005 movie, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, popped up on my Netflix account the other night and of course, I had to watch it and The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. America Ferrera, Blake Lively, Amber Tamblyn, and Alexis Bledel go shopping one day and find a pair of jeans that all magically fit them—a sign from above that all are connected and best friends forever yadda yadda. The moral of the story is friendship and having your close girl-friends around you in times of strife and despair. Whether or not this pair of denim really did anything, the bond was always there. 

I don't think I can stress enough just how important having a support system of friends really is. All support systems look different and come in all different sizes. I realize that the friend making process is hard, in all aspects and times of life. For those going to college, it's going to be really hard at first to find your niche and that's okay. Same for people starting a new job, it can seem really hard to find people to relate to and confide in. 

Personally, my friend groups are different all around. I have my close family friends, my best friends that I've known since I was very little, my school friends, my PRSSA friends, dog friends—it can be very overwhelming to know that there are a lot of people that know me and it can be tricky trying to keep up with it all. I'm definitely not trying to boast, but you kind of just meet people all over and it takes time to develop those trusted relationships. 

You can go through a lot during your life and some very low points, as well. Recently, my mom has been diagnosed with stage one breast cancer, and while that is amazingly lucky news, it could have been worse. She is doing really well and will be going through treatment soon when I'm traveling abroad and within a couple of days we disclose the news to people, I realized just how much love there is around me. 

We get so focused on our routines that we forget how much people there are around us who have our backs and would do anything for us. It's sad that sometimes we don't notice until times of dark, but I am so appreciative for the group of friends and family around me that allow me to confide in them. 

Something I have noticed in myself is that I do things for other people without expecting them to owe me anything. You know, some people question why I'm fine buying like two of my friends Starbucks or what have you, but at the end of the day someone is going to do the same for me and that's just a trust I find in the people I care about. It's funny because I think my closest friends and I just don't talk about it and we have this telepathy that allows us to trust each other even if we live miles and miles away. 

A bond just as magical as a universal pair of pants.